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Wedding Vibes Everywhere!

Happy December, friends!
This is my first post in this month and this time I will not be complaining about not posting earlier because guess what I’m getting married! And I think this is a good reason for not writing quite often. Yes, I’m beyond excited about everything and I had like a billion things to do, but somehow I managed to remain calm. My wedding preps are almost done, every single detail is planned and all I have to do now is to stay calm and wait for my wedding day. The wedding will take place in one of the hotels in my city, on December 21st. I know it’s like two weeks from now and even though I look calm outside, I swear I’m screaming inside. I have everything – my wedding dress, my bridesmaids, and decoration. Everything’s here and I hope I will have control over these things. Huh, now putting these thoughts into words gave that strong feeling of anxiety. I guess it’s normal thing. Anyway, I’m really happy and I can’t wait to get married.

On the other hand, previous two months were quite hectic for me and I didn’t manage to read anything. I really had so many things to do and I mentioned all of them in my previous posts. I was so busy and I missed reading so much. I hope I will read at least one or two books before the year ends. I think I will go for some light read, maybe some good holiday book. Unfortunately, I really have no idea what to read and your book suggetstions are very welcome at the moment. I want to read something romantic, snowy, and christmasy. Speaking of the holiday romance, have you guys seen the movie Let It Snow? I remeber four years ago I read this book by Maureen Johnson, John Green, and Lauren Myracle and I really loved it. I was so happy when I heard that they are making the movie based on this book and I even downloaded it. I just couldn’t find the time to see it.
For those of you who have seen the movie, what do you think about it?

I kind of realized that the last two months are all about my personal things and it’s less book oriented, but it’s because we get busy sometimes and we barely have the time for anything. I didn’t give up on reading and I will never do that. Reading has a really special place in my heart and it’s something that makes me happy. I hope you understand me now.

Have a great weekend,

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November Activities: My Graduation

Hello friends,
again I broke my promise by saying that I will be more active this month. It did not happen. If you follow me here you probably know by now that I suck at planning. It just never goes as planned. However, I have big news, are you ready?

I am proud to say that this month I graduated!

I am so happy and I can’t believe that I’m not a student anymore. It’s over now and now I’m a teacher. The funny thing is that my graduation surprised me at first because my final exam in Syntax was way too difficult. I studied but I thought I will have to re-sit it next time.
Also, I made a promise to myself that this is not the end. I will continue studying and exploring things that I’m interested in. In my opinion, we should encourage ourselves to always do something new. To learn something new. Life is useless without learning and knowing new things. It’s really important and I think people don’t talk enough about it.
We should motivate younger people and show them that without education your life is not complete. Let’s all agree on this one, please.
On the other hand, my graduation surprised me and my life turned upside down somehow. Everything’s different now and I barely read anything this month. I started reading Imaginary Friend by Stephen Chbosky, but I read only like 20 pages of it. I opted for this book because I really love The Perks of Being a Wallflower and I have some strong emotions towards that book. It’s one of my all-time-favorites. I dare to say that Imaginary Friend is somewhat different and a bit of unusual considering the fact that Chbosky wrote it. I also started reading Love At First Swipe by Gareth Fosberry and I already like it. It feels good to read something other than a fantasy. One of the many reasons why I barely read is that in December I will move out. We are still buying all neccessary things for our home and honestly it takes a lot of time.How’s been your November so far? Have you read any good book?

Have a lovely week,

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October Activities: What I Watched This Month

Danger doesn’t lurk at every corner. It’s just hanging out, waiting for fear and horror to show up.

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Hello readers,
I have been inactive for the past two weeks and I almost missed the whole month of writing. I barely posted anything during this month and I’m truly sad because of that. October is one of my favorite months of the year and I can’t believe I didn’t post more often. However, many things had happened over this month, the good and the bad ones. I think I will start with the bad things because I would like to end this post in a positive tone.
First of all, my first neighbor passed away two days ago. It was shocking news for everyone because he wasn’t sick at all. To make things worse – he was only 40. I’m still sad and I can’t believe that he’s gone. But, eh.. That’s called life. You exist in one second and then in the other you don’t. You disappear. Just like that. What I can’t stress enough, here, is that we worry too much. We are almost never satisfied with our lives. We long for material things, which is wrong sometimes. We forget that we all die and we will be forgotten so easily. Love hard. Respect others. Respect yourself. That’s what matters.Secondly, I had a really important exam this month. I studied every day and I still don’t know my results. It was difficult, but I hope for the best. It was the exam from the Syntax and I really hate that subject, but I can’t complain. I need to pass it.
On the other hand, I spent a lot of time with my boyfriend. We are still buying new things for our new home, but things got easier this month. We bought all the furniture and it finally looks like home now. I’m so happy and I can’t wait to move in! Also, we spent a lot of time in cinema this month. We watched some horrors because if not now, when? First we watched IT Chapter Two and it was really scary, I loved it. It’s probably the best movie I watched this month. It’s based on Stephen King’s novel and it’s so good and I give it 5 out of 5 stars.


Secondly, we saw Polaroid, which is also horror. A high school student, Bird, is given an old Polaroid camera. Being a huge fan of photography, she starts taking photos of her friends. However, she notices the weird, dark shadow standing behind her friends. It gets creepy when her friends, one by one, die after being followed by the shadow in the pictures. To understand her next move, Bird needs to study the past. I really liked this movie, but it’s not my favorite because in some moments I thought that its plot is too simple and predictable. I give it 3 out of five stars.

Lastly, we saw Countdown which is also horror. I must say that I’ve been dying to see this movie since I saw its trailer. Basically it’s about a phone app that can tell you the exact moment of your death. It all starts as a joke until this app proves to be correct for some people. When a nurse downloads this app, it tells her that she has only three days to live. She is extremely nervous and upset, but being followed by a scary figure in reality, she simply must find a way to survive. I liked this movie because it grabs your attention from the first moment. It’s super scary and I like the touch of the modern technology. I give it 4 out of 5 stars.

And that was it for this month. I know it’s two days from Halloween, but I think I’m done with watching horrors for this year. I must admit day I have seen more movies than I have read books in this month. I somehow gave myself a well-deserved break from reading because I read many books in September. I am pretty much satisfied with my activities during this month. October was a really good month for me and I am so excited for November!

How about you? How was your October?

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World Mental Health Day

It’s okay to feel unstable. It’s okay to disassociate. It’s okay to hide from the world. It’s okay to need help. It’s okay not to be okay. Your mental illness is not a personal failure.

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Happy World Mental Health Day!
Being the person who lives with anxiety, I have so much to say. First of all, I feel obliged to tell you that you MUST take care of yourself and of your mental health, Trust me, if you don’t put yourself in the first place, no one else will. I feel like this topic is something that people don’t talk much about and I don’t know why. Maybe it’s because people are ashamed of their mental illness.
My first meeting with my therapist was such a failure mostly because I didn’t find support from my family. They thought that only ‘crazy’ people talk with therapists. At my first meeting I was so scared and I couldn’t talk about my problems openly. I thought they will not understand me. On the other hand, I was ashamed but not because I was meeting with the therapist, but because I thought the things that make me sad and anxious are stupid. I thought I was being silly while I was talking about my fears. Thankfully, my therapist told me that it’s okay to feel that way sometimes. It’s okay not to be okay.

Sometimes, I break.

And it’s still fine. My broken pieces are still me. Oh yes, I am worthy. On some days I keep asking God ‘why me?’ Well, if he didn’t believe in me, he wouldn’t let me go through all of this. That’s the only answer I can think of. And it’s true – each one of us is beautiful. Our mental illness do not define the person who we are. We are beautiful and there’s nothing we should be ashamed of. Just let you know, you are not alone in this. We can and we will win this battle.